always swimming around in my head
making wave after wave
the anchor has been set
your stay was short
but the reverb crashes on
a slow drift in a bemusing heartache
but that’s ok
lucky to have set sail at all
if only for a moment
never even met you
but I certainly knew you
please keep swimming
makes it easier to wade in the dream
at least I can hold your hand there
Call off the dogs already, Genius
Take your foot off the pedal
Self-sabotage doesn’t have to be your thing
But hey, it was a good little run you had there
Tested waters while you tempted fate
It’s OK to feel like a fool
Foolishness has always been your platform, for better or worse
But did you really need to venture down in that well?
What exactly was your endgame there?
What did you think was gonna happen?
Nobody can play you like you play yourself
And you just love that fucking game
Glutton for punishment by choice
Because you have to feel every now and again
You should learn to fear something other than yourself
Maybe some trepidation would keep your heart in check
But no, the daredevil has to perform
Back into the belly of the very trauma you were born out of
You know you’re stronger than that
But grey has always been the preferred shade
Beating yourself up still counts as a win
Oh, forgive me
I’m talking to myself again
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